Engineer na ako...yey!

After four years of studying at 6 months of review, naging engineer din ako sa wakas...although this is not really my ultimate goal but I really would want to thank God for the blessings he has bestowed upon me. Sobrang thankful ako sa lahat ng taong nagdasal para sa akin at sa lahat ng taong sumuporta. This has been a very great year. Una, yung Civil Service Exam. Kahit di ako nagreview, pumasa pa rin. Now I am an eligible to take part in the corruption of our political system (joke!hehehehe). Tapos, yung pag-graduate ko. Kahit na may bagsak ako, hinabol ko pa rin na maging on term grumaduate. Though, medyo hindi pa super saya yun kasi nagrereview ako nun, still it is something noteworthy. Then finally this, being a licensed Engineer. Parang after all the pain that I experienced in the past ay unti-unti ko nang nakakalimutan. It is a reminder na life is beyond what we expect it (ay ano ba yan?di ko rin magets...hehehe). May paniniwala ako na ang buhay ay hindi vitamins na you can have it all. Kahit na may mga hindi ako na-achieve dati sa buhay, parang life and God makes up for it by at least giving you something beyond what you expect. Dati noong pinagsarhan ako ng pinto ng kapalaran, sobrang sakit. As in na "in your face!". Pero sangkatutak naman na opportunities ang naopen so OK na rin. Hindi natatapos ang buhay sa mga kabiguan.

Ang drama naman ng post ko..on a lighter note na lang, ito yung nangyari sa akin nung board exam

Math - ayos, medyo solvable. kahit na hindi ko masyadong gamay yung related rates (hindi ko talaga mapalabas yung sagot eh..paano ba yun?), solvable naman yung problems. galing ng coaching kasi may isang folder talaga na nilaan para sa topic na yun. tipong 100 na differential calculus problems.

Elecs - pagkita ko, wow!parang virtual lang. yung mga weird terms lumabas. kaya lang di ko masyado naaral pagdating dun sa mga transistors kaya medyo kabado. yung mga saybolt, czachroisky (whatever), tsaka pati yung mammogram lumabas...mukhang busy nga talaga si sir bajador

GEAS - nung second day medyo pagod na ako. di kasi ako nakapahinga ng maayos. nung gabi kasi sinimulan ko pa yung Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge. kaya ayun, ang sakit sa ulo. kasi yung tanong tipong yun na eh. pag di mo talaga alam ang sagot deads ka. andun pa yung honey tsaka yung kapal yata ng steel. ay ewan ko dun! kinabahan pa nga ako kasi habang kumakain ako ng fudgee bar eh may nalaglag na morsel dun sa answer sheet ko..waah!it's over na ba ito?pero sa dulo lang naman yung nalagyan..di dun sa mga sagot mismo...ayos naman

EST - medyo hula mode din though may binigay kasi sa akin ang isang kakilala ko days before the exam na mga questions tsaka may sagot na sa choices...ayos may mga lumabas din naman..yung iba nirely ko na lang sa binasa ko dati. tapos nung donation na, binigay ko lahat ng pencil, ballpen, triangles, sharpener tsaka eraser ko. sabi nga ng watcher sa akin "di ka na babalik?"..sabi ko talaga, hindi na po (with a smile on my face..nye!?)..

kaya ayun...susunod naman, iniisip ko pa kung mag-aaral ako ng Educ, Law (nye?) kaya masters...

Let this be a warning to mankind...

It all started that day while I was surfing the net, looking for videos for Kahit Isang Saglit (the drama, hoping to find some episodes) and what I was able to find was a piano version of that song. Then I noticed in the comments that the one who posted that video replied to one of the comments and he complimented the guy for he is a cello player. As I was intrigued, I checked out that guy's profile and watched some of his videos. What caught my attention was his rendition of the Schindler's List theme. Then all the memories came back to me...

Years ago I was intrigued about the whole Auschwitz and Nazi thing because of the column of the late Max Soliven in The Philippine Star. There, he described his experience in going to Auschwitz. I was intrigued. First, why was he so depressed after going there and second what really transpired in that place? Then, it started my search for what Auschwitz was.

Having our own problems back here in our own country during those times ()WWII, we had the Japanese here and there were also so many atrocities done) I wasn't that much interested about the what happened in Europe back then so it was only recently that I had some interest about it.

That idea remained in the closet for a while (for I need to attend to my college studies) until now. What I learned about the Holocaust was that Hitler blamed the Jews for Germany's defeat in the first world war that is why all of these policies were made against the Jews. There was the Kristallnacht where all the Jewish properties and other things related to the Jews were vandalized or destroyed, the segragation of the Jews from the different European societies, the deployment of the Ghettos and finally the Final Solution, the Jewish concentration or death camps. Much has been said about these Jewish death camps and probably the most famous of them all was Auschwitz in Poland. It was originally intended for the Soviet POWs (prisoners of war) but then later on was converted to a Jewish concentration camp. All over Europe from Germany to Yugoslavia, Jews were sent here from other prison camps to meet their "final solution". After the war, there were survivors yes. But until this day, there is an eerie and heavy feeling when you go there. I've not been there yet but still the thought of having millions of people killed and burnt for that matter in that place makes you fiiled with a disturbing thought.

That is why in the Auschwitz camp today there is a sign that says "Let this be a warning to mankind of what hatred can do".

Malapit na ang umaga (o dilim?nyay...)

With a few days remaining (20 days na lang...syet..pressure) update lang sa mga pinaggagagawa ko sa buhay ko

> Sa wakas! After 2 years in the waiting (2 nga ba or 3 na...or more pa yata), napanood ko na rin ang OLDBOY! At matapos ko siya mapanood, wala lang. Ayos lang. Napatunayan ko doon na ang pelikula ni Park Chan Wook ay pare-parehong surreal, violent, at ang cast ay pare-piareho din (naiba lang yung mga bida). Sa apat na sikat na pelikula ni Park Chan Wook (apat nga lang ba?) tatlo na ang napanood ko. Iyon ay ang Sympathy for Lady Vengeance, I'm a Cyborg but that's OK tsaka itong huli, yung OLDBOY.

> Dahil malapit na ang board, eto ako online pa rin. Hindi ko talaga maiwan itong online life ko eh. Kumbaga eh buhay ko na talaga. Alipin na nitong makinang ito (syet). Good luck na lang talaga sa akin at sa lahat ng magte-take ng board. Kaya natin ito! Whooo!!!!

> Ngayon ay World Teacher's Day. Sabi kanina ni father na ang pagtuturo daw ay isang vocation. Kaya, wala lang. Di pa rin yata namamatay sa loob ko na gusto kong magturo in the future.

> Sa pag-ibig, wala. Deads. Killed. Magandang theme song ngayon ay "Tuyo nang damdamin" kasi kahit na pilitin ang damdamin, hindi na talaga siya sumusunod. Mukhang mali na yata yung teorya ko dati na basta pilitin ko ang sarili ko sa isang bagay, mangyayari at mangyayari iyon. Kumbaga, it's all in the state of mind. Pero hindi pala.